Tired!

Well today I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed! I guess after 6 days of just feeling "ok" its finally caught up to me. Its like a yo-yo...I'm happy that I'm not miserably sick, but frustrated that I constantly feel chemo aftermath! My mouth and throat feel like a giant cotton ball!! Food doesn't taste very good, but I want to eat so bad! Liquids are still hard to get down because of the weird taste. I want so bad to be able to enjoy something!! I believe it was my second TX that I didn't feel too bad right away, and then it kicked in the next week....I'm kinda feeling that way now....like I celebrated too soon. I'm tired!!! Tired of being bald.....tired of feeling nauseous all the time....tired of dry mouth.....tired of chemo brain.....tired of heartburn....tired of being irritable....tired of being tired.....tired of appts....tired of orange pill bottles....tired of diarrhea...tired of muscle aches....tired of my nail beds hurting...tired of hot flashes...oh and did I mention tired of chemo brain?!?  Ha!  And the list goes on and on!!!  I know its almost over, I know the end is near.......but right here, right now.....I'm miserable!!  My poor family has gotten the brunt end of my misery the last few days....I'm sure they will all have stories to tell about "The day mom flipped out!"  lol   I may be the one with cancer, but we are all experiencing the effects of cancer!  So glad I have such great friends and family that will hang in there with me till the end!!!  Thank you all, and as I always say, I could not do this alone, without all the prayers and support and people cheering for recovery, it would be easy to fall into a place of darkness and doom!!  But I will continue to push through with my fierce faith so that one day...not to far from now....I can look back and say I DID IT!!!

~Fierce Faith~