Well it has been 3 weeks since my last post....I have been very busy and feeling great!! The kids are all back in school. Such a great feeling to have them all in school all day! I know that my body is ridding itself of all the chemo crap because I love mornings again. The last 5 months mornings have been dreadful...first off I just couldn't get myself to wake up, and then when I did I would get so tired so easily. My energy is slowly coming back and my love of mornings is too!!
I've been on an emotional roller coaster regarding my surgery in 6 days :{ I'm trying to look at it as my mini vacation! lol For 5 days in the hospital I get to order whatever I want to eat....sleep whenever I want......read magazines......call on someone else if I need anything.....no cleaning.....no laundry......no cooking.......NOTHING!! Well other than recovering from a major surgery. So I'm kind of excited...then my brain quickly shifts to....10 hours of surgery...What if I wake up in the middle of it? What if I don't wake up at all?? What if its horribly painful recovery? How do I go to the bathroom? What will by body look like? (I'm imaging like something that Edward scissor hands got ahold of..lol) I then begin my google search..typing in just what I'm thinking.....sometimes I feel better....most times not so much! Hahaha. So, I have had to work hard, but I am trying to rely on faith and stay positive that this is just another day in the O.R for the doctors and staff.....just like I get up, get the kids to school, go to work and come back home..these doctors do this same surgery every week, for lots of women just like me...they all wake up (when its over!) they all recover...they all make their way to the bathroom...and after the healing process, they look great! I am thankful that God blessed these individuals with the talent and ability to perform such an amazing (to me) transformation of the body. Who will now be considered heroes in my life!!
Once again.....this song has touched my heart and as I listen to the lyrics I do believe that I have tons of reasons to sing....that Ive fought the good fight....and this hurt is soon going to be healing. Its not over, and I'm still fighting....I'm ready to take back what cancer thought it could take from me. Although it has been a tough 5 months, and it has put stress on relationships, finances, my kids, my body, my mind....I did not let it win! And I am declaring that everything and everyone that had to suffer for me in 2011, will be abundantly blessed in 2012!! Thank you for supporting my family and I, thank you for the shoulder to cry on, thank you for the meals that fueled our bodies, thank you for the cards that uplifted my spirits, thank you for the gifts that made me smile, thank you for allowing me to be weak, thank you for the friendship, thank you for the prayers!! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!
~Fierce Faith~
