Hair today....Gone tomorrow

Again, I apologize for so long between posts! When I feel good, I am so busy working and keeping ahead of cleaning and laundry, I just don't take the time to sit down and post.
Well....as I was mentioning in my last post my hair was slowly coming to an end....on Thursday at 11am, I had to let it all go!!! LOL From Monday to Thursday it changed from coming out in my fingers if Id run my hands through it to being able to pull chunks out from the root. I couldn't do anything with it, so my dear hairdresser (and best friend) met me at her salon with pink balloons and a dozen pink roses for a farewell to my beloved hair!! Mom was there as well with her camera in hand! Some tears were shed not just by us but by other hairdressers and clients of the salon, they were all so supportive showing amazing love and uplifting me with compliments and hugs that it will soon grow back. I have to say it was a pretty big shock, but I was so grateful to see that my head was free of moles, birthmarks, fat rolls, etc!!  I am now in the market for cute hats!  I am still trying to find the right wig....havent found "the one" yet, but I am completely content with hats.  I didnt think I'd like scarves, but have seen some pretty cute ones.  So, I guess I would have to say I am adjusting rather well to my "chrome dome"  Another hurdle on my journey that is now behind me. 


My 2nd Chemo was moved from the 31st to June 1st.  So, Wednesday at 8am I start round 2 of the UCFC.   The good news.....I know what to expect this time.  The bad news.....I know what to expect this time!  Lol  I saw a quote on a preview for a new movie that said, "There is no force on Earth more powerful than the will to live"  I will take this quote through my darkest days of round 2.  I will fight like a girl!!!  I will prove to God that he has the right player in the right position for what he has called me to do! I will strive to be an inspiration to my family & friends, and anyone faced with cancer and the loved ones that support them.  I have the will to live and I WILL be a survivor!! 

I love you all!  Fierce Faith

My Chrome Dome Posse'

Brother Jason, John, me & James

Great weekend

Hi everyone...I had an amazing weekend, feeling great. Aliyah had her kindergarten bbq on friday, and I still had hair! (She had mentioned earlier that it would be ok for me to come even if I was bald!) Lol Had Aliyahs bday party at Chuck E Cheese on saturday...that was a huge success..lots of friends were able to make it. (Thank you everyone for making her day so special) And on Sunday we had family pictures...and I still had hair!! Pictures were amazing! I can't wait to get them, we had lots of fun being the goofy family that we are! (Thank you Kari for that amazing gift!) I had a post op Dr. appt today, that went well. 13 since chemo...blood counts were all good, platelets were low, I go in tomorrow for my herceptin infusion, so I will see what they want to do then. I feel great! So glad since its just a week away and I get to do it all over again!! Man that time went fast! My big news is.....my hair started falling out today! Not in big clumps, but if I run my fingers through it, I end up with quite a bit in my hand. Its really kind of freaky. I went down and tried on wigs this afternoon...that was interesting! They all just looked so fake to me...they looked awesome on the bald manequin, but when I put them on, it looked like a big nest on my head! Haha. I have such fine, thin hair. It looked weird having a full, thick head of hair, which Is what I've always wanted! I did find one I liked, and they can order it in a color very close to my own. I'm going to look at a couple more places, I know I don't have but a couple days left with my own hair!! Sad, but I knew it was coming. Other than that we are all hangin in there, taking life 1 day at a time...counting all our blessings! Thank you all for your tremendous love and support..somedays I wouldn't make it through without the encouragement from many of you.

Love you--fierce faith <3

Human again?!?

Hi everyone! I think Im on the mend now from round 1 of chemo!! Holy Shit, I ain't gonna lie...that SUCKED!! Still not back at 100%, but I don't think I will be until chemo is done. Im well on my way to losing my 30 lbs in 30 days! Thanks to everyone who brought us amazing food!! My family is loving it...we've had; pasta, chili, meatloaf, tacos, chicken alfredo, enchiladas, WOW! Looks and smells delicious! My appetite has been pretty much nothing...I've been eating bananas, yogurt, and popsicles!! Oooh and vanilla milkshakes! Those are my favorite!! Sunday evening when I started feeling human again I was craving cheese pizza...wasnt sure how it would do on my stomach, but at that point popsicles and bananas werent doing any better!! I had 2 pieces of papa murphys cheese pizza!! It was soooooo good!! Sunday night was horrible...not sure what happened, but Im pretty sure I had an anxiety attack....breathing was hard, I couldn't get comfortable, ended up taking a shower to hopefully try to relax, didn't help as much as I'd hoped, but eventually I was able to fall asleep. James ended up staying home with me. That was comforting. So, it is safe to say I have my first battle under my belt! If I only have to do 4 treatments instead of 6, Im 25% of the way!!! Im not sure how they decide, but let's all pray for 4!! Although I'm not looking forward to round 2, knowing I will be half way through it, is very comforting! So for now, I'm going to enjoy my days of feeling human again!

I'll leave ya with a little story;
Aliyah came home from school one day and said, "I wish I didn't tell one of my friends that you had cancer because she made fun of you." Mommy kindly replied, "its ok Aliyah, she probably doesn't really understand. And its ok to tell her that hurts your feelings." Then chemo bitch piped in...." And if she does it again, punch her in the face!!!" Lol Hey mama bear is just trying to protect her cub....the kids are dealing with enough as it is!

Love you all and God bless.....Fierce Faith!

#1 Fan

My first and #1 fan in the "chrome dome" club!!!

Anyone else?????

Fear or Faith?

Wow!! Today was a true test....we all felt the effects of chemo today. Faith and fear cannot reside in the same body, and this morning my body, my mind, my everything was covered in fear. I owe a HUGE thanks to my amazing husband, my kids, mom & dad, Heather, Shasta, Darcy & Kari for getting me through today! Whether your hugs, your words, your prayer, or your big comfy recliner (thanks dad..this is like heaven!) you all had a huge impact on my day! I had one hell of a night..and it got worse as the day went on...nausea, NO sleep, body aches, sore mouth/throat, rash on chest & neck.....i cried all day....I felt defeated, beat down....hurting!! No matter how hard I tried, I could not pull myself out of despair! Over and over I kept hearing...faith or fear? God was right here...open arms....and I was scared..trying to get through this on my own. So now here I am...slightly medicated...ok, well very medicated, but with the ability to think clearly again....remembering the very thing I stand on...FAITH...FIERCE FAITH!! and although this journey will be filled with ups and downxs....even in the deepest darkest moments, I will rise up in faith and let God do what he has already promised he will do! I will not let fear take over again!! Thanks again for everyone who is following along. Thanks for the prayers not just for me, but for my family as well. Thanks for crying with us during the tough times...and celebrating the small triumphs!

I love you all so very much!
Fierce Faith

UCFC (ultimate cancer fighting championship)

Thought all you UFC fans might get a kick out of this post!

Here we go....the current champion of the world....chemo....just stepped into the ring...my body....to battle his new opponent!! Chemo is off to a butt kicking start! I must say it was a rough start for me....took the 3rd nurse to finally access my port, but once it was in...smooth sailin! I've got tons of naseau meds already on board, plus lots on hand! I also started a steroid yesterday, I take for 3 days..that had me up all night...probably shouldn't have taken second dose at 11pm! Haha...so anyway, this blog is short and sweet...we've got 3-5 more treatments and were walking in faith with God that this cancer will be destroyed and never to return!

Until next time....forever in faith!